Autumn's Offering:

I lied. I lied. I lied. I lied. I lied. I lied. I lied. I lied. I lied.

I am dying.

I can't take it anymore.

ruptured bowels (11:10:41 PM): i'm sorry blainey
ruptured bowels (11:10:47 PM): don't die
ruptured bowels (11:10:52 PM): i'd be overly upset
ruptured bowels (11:11:19 PM): many worse things have passed, and so will this
ruptured bowels (11:11:29 PM): it's goign to be alright
ruptured bowels (11:11:35 PM): things will get better
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:11:42 PM): No. they won't.
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:11:46 PM): They never do
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:11:53 PM): I don't care who says they will get better
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:11:57 PM): THEY NEVER FUCKING DO.

MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:12:43 PM): Everytime anything goes right
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:12:44 PM): it's like
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:12:49 PM): nine hundred other things go wrong.
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:12:52 PM): And I'm tired of it
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:12:55 PM): Joe and I were perfect
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:13:03 PM): everything was perfect
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:13:08 PM): we never fought
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:13:24 PM): we never yelled at eachother
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:13:28 PM): we love the same music
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:13:30 PM): I support him
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:13:35 PM): he supports me.
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:13:40 PM): I LOVE HIM
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:13:42 PM): HE LOVES ME.
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:13:53 PM): and then God had to play games with his emotions.
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:14:03 PM): And give him the feeling that Joe and I weren't meant to be.
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:14:07 PM): And so, Joe broke up with me.
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:14:12 PM): The worst fucking part
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:14:15 PM): is that he still loves me
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:14:19 PM): and won't be with me.
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:14:29 PM): That's a good portion of the reason why I'm losing weight
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:14:31 PM): maybe I'm too fat.
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:14:36 PM): or not pretty enough.
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:14:38 PM): or.
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:14:42 PM): WTF is wrong with me
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:14:44 PM): what did I do wrong.
MyHeartIsSturdyx (11:14:48 PM): I don't understand.