Autumn's Offering:

I'm not ohkay.

And for the record:
You have every reason to cheat on me.
You'd almost be stupid if you didn't.
I wouldn't blame you, I know I'm not much.
That's my reasoning for why you might be cheating on me.
Don't take offense.
It's not specifically about you.
It's how I feel about everyone I've ever liked, dated or cared about.

Joe made my paranoia worse because I loved him.
So you can blame him.